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MR. CRUSH
How did I stop myself from entering the “wrong” type of relationship??
Wait, don’t judge yet. Let’s talk about what I’m feeling at the moment.
Some people find it hard to connect to people emotionally, and it’s even worse if these people are overthinkers. Some people get everything they want despite and there are still people who can perfectly live a double life.
And I am all these in one.
I might have just sighed after writing this — like being this person was a sickness — but I would be living in denial; well, I am still living in denial.
I am both irrational and calculating, if that’s even a thing. I can do the craziest things in certain situations and still be very traditionally strict in other situations; it has always been about my mood at every instance.
Enough of writing about me.
Have you ever seen someone and had this overwhelming rush of something I can’t even explain to the point you feel choked, and you really have to take deep breaths to calm yourself down but at the same time absolutely enjoy the feeling? It’s been six months, and I still feel this rush every fucking time I see him. My friends wonder what on earth I like about him, and me, very funny, but I can’t even explain it. Well, I haven’t always been able to explain how I really like the people I like.
