“Have you ever thought of harming yourself or ending your life?” Ms. Betty asked.
“I was a very happy child or at least I remember I was.
Now, I can’t even say exactly what I am. “I’m not messed up”.
Have you ever thought of harming yourself or ending your life?
Ms. Betty asked again.
I’m totally fine but I need h…
I could never write it…. or say it.
I mean I would never.
I’m not that crazy.
I can’t say I need h…. I can’t type it.
Everyone would know.
I would be open.
I didn’t want pity.
How did I stop myself from entering the “wrong” type of relationship??
Wait, don’t judge yet. Let’s talk about what I’m feeling at the moment.
Some people find it hard to connect to people emotionally, and it’s even worse if these people are overthinkers. Some people get everything they want despite and there are still people who can perfectly live a double life.
And I am all these in one.
I might have just sighed after writing this — like being this person was a sickness — but I would be living in denial; well, I am still living in…
Today is the last day of the month and also the end of the first quarter. I posted my first quarter review on my YouTube channel and also planned for the month of April. It was nice journaling for the first time ever and I must say this challenge was good 💪🏽.
I do not have plans of stopping this journaling challenge because I enjoy doing it. …
I discovered that I enjoy watching people’s YouTube channels 😂, most times when I am not working I just watch my favorite channels.
I do not watch them to only have fun, I tend to learn a lot as well because shooting a video is now one of my favorite things to do.
I have not journaled in 3 days and I feel a bit guilty about it, I also remind myself that it really isn’t compulsory I journal daily😁😁. I was able to create 6 content on my YouTube channel this…
I tried something very new and weird😂 and I am also paying for it! I woke up by 2 am in the morning to create content for my YouTube channel. I had planned the night before that I was going to sleep very early so I could wake up as early as 4 AM to shoot my video. The planning was right and perfect😁. Imagine heat and lots of sweating waking you up by 1:30 AM in this cold weather of 5 degrees Celsius. …
I have missed writing these journals, last week was quite hectic and a bit challenging, I do not think I handled it properly because I tried to punish myself badly for not knowing somethings thereby forgetting that it is okay not to know everything 😩😒.
I was a bit laid back last week when it came to building the habits I wanted, but I kept laying my bed every morning though😁. I did not cycle as often as I was supposed to, neither did I read atomic habits nor completely keep…
Sometimes bad things happen around you and all it does is remind you of some horrible places and experiences you never wish to remember. Today had me reliving a bad experience I had some time in 2018. The feeling of inadequacy, sadness, tiredness, and unanswered questions.
On the other hand, two of my friends celebrated their birthdays. I am grateful to God for their lives and all his blessings and favors they are yet to experience.
I did my usual routine, I am really tired, my stomach hurts…
A beautiful week! A Happy new week and happy Monday😁. Some weekends, I dread Mondays while others I look forward to. This week I am not so sure what to call it but regardless, it is a beautiful one❤️.
I woke up early today, I was excited and at the sametime I wanted to get some more sleep. My friend who is also my workout partner called me at exactly 7 am which is the exact time we exercise on weekdays.
I stood up and made my bed (it is…